i I think of my time with my baby as "meditative", by which I mean that it's boring in a mildly pleasant way, if I can maintain a specific mental equilibrium. When that equilibrium is disturbed, then it's just regular boring. Babies want constant low-level stimulation, requiring just enough that I can't space out into a separate train of thought or focus on a podcast, but nowhere near enough to fully occupy my attention. I can interest her in basically anything, whether it's a rattle or a book or a piece of cloth, by shaking it a few times in her field of view. In the early days when she was prone to unexpected projectile vomiting and I was sleeping only three hours at a stretch, there was a certain edge to the experience. But now it's just that meditative slight boredom.